#1 2006-10-27 16:02:13
Why do I always have my ups and downs?
I have had depression since I was little... and I don't like it.. but name one person who does!!!! My question is why do I always have ups and downs.. when I am with my friends I can be depressed.... and with my parents be normal... maybe because I have to hide it a lot of the time.... I don't want my baby girl growing up thinking that her mom is some kind of depressionized maniac.. I want her to always have fun with me.. I hate pills so the doctor told me that I have to try to think positive thoughts.. only problem about that is you can think positive and then think negative about the same thing.. like a fluffy kitten.. so cute and cuddly.. but then comes a truck and BAM there comes depression.. not a good example but you catch my drift.... I guess what I am trying to say is I need help big time... people add me and tell me what you have done to get over it.. WITHOUT taking pills
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Tiera